I’m feeling a lot of sadness and grief. I’m grieving the loss of my beautiful, sweet and loving sister Shirani. A lot of people knew her as Aisha. But I knew her as Shirani.
Growing up, I have a few memories of her but we really connected in the past 4 years. The past 4 years we found an understanding between each other despite our age gap. We found respect and a new found love as sisters. I really understood her more and found myself really understanding the reasoning behind her actions.
Last November, when I had to move back to Maldives, I am so thankful looking back that she was there to welcome me back home. I think about how much I had hugged her and held her hands while walking. I still feel her fingers in between mine and the few moments I felt like a little girl looking up to her sister.
She passed away early this morning at 3:50 am in Boston and I could not believe the words I heard. ‘She’s gone, diyana.. she’s gone’
We had made plans to spend more time together here in Maldives. We had made all these plans with the kids and for us, to create more memories and be together navigating this new chapter.
My dear sister loved my kids so hard and I am so thankful I have so many memories to look back on of her being the most loving aunt to them. I am so grateful I got to see that side of her and with us both being moms, I got to also understand how she must have been feeling all those years ago as a young woman in the states navigating this life away from all our family. I find myself respecting and understanding all those years I didn’t get to see her in the states but knowing more than ever how she must have felt. She raised two beautiful and smart daughters whom I can’t wait to see because I know I’ll hear and see her in them.
There are so many things I wish I did or communicated better before she passed on. But I know and hold my faith strong in knowing that she is in safe hands and that God is the best of planners.
Sis, I miss you so much. I love you very much. I listen to your audio notes over and over again. I watch all the beautiful and funny videos I took of you with the kids. I will remember all your advice, all your beautiful smiles, your great hugs and your funny jokes. You know, everyone always says you were so kind to them and honouring you would be to take a page out of your book by doing exactly that. To be kind and loving to all that I will meet. I love you so much my sis. I miss you terribly and will pray for you every day.
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